what is your dragon scroll?
the one thing you work for, strive for believe in, that will make your life so much better?
only to reach it and find out it was blank....
i think that God often tries to tell me this and i find myself so often missing the point that He seems to repeat the process although slightly differently each time as not to become redundant.
sometimes God will use unlikely people, or use you for things you never though possible to prove his point that anyone can do what he wants you to do...but there is a secret ingredient and that is God (yeah it sounds a little cheesy and cliche, but please remember whose blog you are reading). He will grant you the ability to do what he has called you to do because even though you may not believe it He knows you are a better fit to the situation.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Spell Check
spell check is such a funny thing, very handy but it comes up with some brilliant sugggestions.
the best one i think i've seen so far was a run on or mix up of does not and it suggested doe snot. serioulsy who whould write anything about doe snot, do does even have snot?
anyways thought i'd share.
the best one i think i've seen so far was a run on or mix up of does not and it suggested doe snot. serioulsy who whould write anything about doe snot, do does even have snot?
anyways thought i'd share.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Shower Inspirations
OK so as weird as it may sound i do much of my best and most creative thinking in the shower.
Not sure why that's why i like those bathtub crayons, they work well on the walls so i have time to come back and write it down on paper with a real pen and not something that will wash off.
i have had lots of stuff going on lately and i know some stuff is maybe not as good as it could or should be, and while i know that part of me does not want to change anything because i like my little routine that i've fallen into. But overall it doesn't really work.
Anyways back to my shower today, i was thinking about how nice it would be to have someone in my life, and thinking how nice i would be for all my on-line friends to be close by so we could actually meet. But really about how i am lacking really good connections in my life right now and how all these things are only temporary cover ups for the deeper issue, God designed up to have a deeper connection with Him, and without it any other relationship will be less than it can be, and anywhere you look to fill you up will only be temporary or just not enough because it is a pretty big hole to fill in. I guess i needed to rally think on this and get the message today because this was my shower composition today:
Not sure why that's why i like those bathtub crayons, they work well on the walls so i have time to come back and write it down on paper with a real pen and not something that will wash off.
i have had lots of stuff going on lately and i know some stuff is maybe not as good as it could or should be, and while i know that part of me does not want to change anything because i like my little routine that i've fallen into. But overall it doesn't really work.
Anyways back to my shower today, i was thinking about how nice it would be to have someone in my life, and thinking how nice i would be for all my on-line friends to be close by so we could actually meet. But really about how i am lacking really good connections in my life right now and how all these things are only temporary cover ups for the deeper issue, God designed up to have a deeper connection with Him, and without it any other relationship will be less than it can be, and anywhere you look to fill you up will only be temporary or just not enough because it is a pretty big hole to fill in. I guess i needed to rally think on this and get the message today because this was my shower composition today:
Why do you look to others to fill the hole for Me?
They cannot fulfill you but I will set you free.
Just shut out all the lies, they'll only do you harm.
Come and sit a while, I'll hold you in My arms.
Just a gentle reminder from the only one who can fill and fulfill to come and rest in Him and just to spend the time with Him and that will help to fill that void.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Pissed off...here come the walls
So i'm a bit pissed off mostly at myself but a bit at some others. i know i probably say too much and it scares people off, but i just don't get why i can't help but do it, if someone wants to get to know me why shouldn't they get to know me, who i am how i am. it gets frustrating to try and be without pretense yet when i do it always comes back to bite me on the butt because shortly after that they go away. i almost feel like adding the disclaimer.."welcome to my crazy, the exit is to your left, watch your step as you run out..."
is it any wonder i build up walls and only let people so far in?
but my problem is what to say and how to say it to people who upset me. i either walk away or blow up i want to say something but don't know what or how.
funny how earlier this week i just ran into a wall i didn't even realize i had put up.
it's funny how you come to many realizations once you hit a wall about yourself and why you do the things you do. or why you keep someone at a distance until you find it or it is brought to your attention.
either way building the walls or running into them hurt.
and tearing them down requires help
...any takers?
is it any wonder i build up walls and only let people so far in?
but my problem is what to say and how to say it to people who upset me. i either walk away or blow up i want to say something but don't know what or how.
funny how earlier this week i just ran into a wall i didn't even realize i had put up.
it's funny how you come to many realizations once you hit a wall about yourself and why you do the things you do. or why you keep someone at a distance until you find it or it is brought to your attention.
either way building the walls or running into them hurt.
and tearing them down requires help
...any takers?
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Getting to Know You
" getting to know you, getting to know all about you..."
it's kind of fun getting to know someone new, just the sheer newness of it. In some ways it gives you a fresh start, because that person is getting to know you as you are now not as you have been, not how you've been changed or anything just you the way you are. and you get to know someone else likes and dislikes and who they are.
there is also something that makes you feel good about someone wanting to get to know you.
it's nice to make connections too.
i believe that over the Internet is a good way to do this but with some caution.
social situations can be awkward especially for those who are in general socially awkward to begin with. you don't have to worry about looking or acting a certain way so it's more genuine and honest and if you screw it up oh well you close the window and never have to speak to the person again. problem is you can also be as dishonest as you want to be too, and no one is the wiser. it's likely not a good long term solution but it is nicer to have a pen pal that writes back right away. sometimes you will never meet, sometimes you hope to meet and sometimes it's just a starting block.
i have people in my life now that fit into all 3 categories, people from here and people from farther away, and i know where they fit into my life. it's funny how you can have good friends that you have never met and live thousands of miles away but you just know that they've got your back.
or people with potential to be more in your life in the future.
it has been an interesting summer so far, i wonder what the fall will bring?
it's kind of fun getting to know someone new, just the sheer newness of it. In some ways it gives you a fresh start, because that person is getting to know you as you are now not as you have been, not how you've been changed or anything just you the way you are. and you get to know someone else likes and dislikes and who they are.
there is also something that makes you feel good about someone wanting to get to know you.
it's nice to make connections too.
i believe that over the Internet is a good way to do this but with some caution.
social situations can be awkward especially for those who are in general socially awkward to begin with. you don't have to worry about looking or acting a certain way so it's more genuine and honest and if you screw it up oh well you close the window and never have to speak to the person again. problem is you can also be as dishonest as you want to be too, and no one is the wiser. it's likely not a good long term solution but it is nicer to have a pen pal that writes back right away. sometimes you will never meet, sometimes you hope to meet and sometimes it's just a starting block.
i have people in my life now that fit into all 3 categories, people from here and people from farther away, and i know where they fit into my life. it's funny how you can have good friends that you have never met and live thousands of miles away but you just know that they've got your back.
or people with potential to be more in your life in the future.
it has been an interesting summer so far, i wonder what the fall will bring?
Monday, August 11, 2008
Trust
Trust is a funny thing, and it needs to be in balance in your life in order for any of it to work really. If you are too trusting, you get taken advantage of and stepped all over and just can't see the evil in people, however if you trust no one you risk leading a very empty and miserable life.
the problem comes in when people whom you have trusted betray you and you become overly cynical of nearly everyone else around you. you doubt yourself and your character judgement of people and wonder how much the next person is going to screw you over. so you keep everyone at a distance for fear of being hurt but it is a lonely existence. you try to avoid the pain of betrayal but enter a void of loneliness.
when you don't trust yourself who else can you trust?
yes God, but sometimes the circumstances in our lives cause us to question even his wisdom. which is awesome to question the one who created you and all things as if HE does not know what He is doing, and us mere humans can run our lives better.
however in our everyday lives there needs to be some amount of trust put in those around us.
why do we give our trust to those unworthy of it time and again but have a hard time trusting those whom we have no real reason to distrust.
the problem comes in when getting to know someone, that relationship, of whatever sort can only progress so far on a surface level, if you do not trust a person enough to open up then the relationship fades or stays as merely acquaintances or superficial relationships.
if you open up too quickly and trust too much it may be too much for someone to handle and they take off wounding you yet again causing you to retreat further into your shell.
but what if you build up the trust slowly? it can go either way, some people just wait until they've earned your trust enough to get in on whatever level they want and then they strike, and yet i believe that the majority of people are not like that it's just that those who are do so much damage.
we just have to realize that people are people, imperfect by nature and even those closest to us can hurt us either intentionally or unintentionally, and while trust is something to be earned it still must be given the opportunity to be earned and grown.
the problem comes in when people whom you have trusted betray you and you become overly cynical of nearly everyone else around you. you doubt yourself and your character judgement of people and wonder how much the next person is going to screw you over. so you keep everyone at a distance for fear of being hurt but it is a lonely existence. you try to avoid the pain of betrayal but enter a void of loneliness.
when you don't trust yourself who else can you trust?
yes God, but sometimes the circumstances in our lives cause us to question even his wisdom. which is awesome to question the one who created you and all things as if HE does not know what He is doing, and us mere humans can run our lives better.
as it says in psalm 118:8
Far better to take refuge in God than trust in people
Far better to take refuge in God than trust in people
however in our everyday lives there needs to be some amount of trust put in those around us.
why do we give our trust to those unworthy of it time and again but have a hard time trusting those whom we have no real reason to distrust.
the problem comes in when getting to know someone, that relationship, of whatever sort can only progress so far on a surface level, if you do not trust a person enough to open up then the relationship fades or stays as merely acquaintances or superficial relationships.
if you open up too quickly and trust too much it may be too much for someone to handle and they take off wounding you yet again causing you to retreat further into your shell.
but what if you build up the trust slowly? it can go either way, some people just wait until they've earned your trust enough to get in on whatever level they want and then they strike, and yet i believe that the majority of people are not like that it's just that those who are do so much damage.
we just have to realize that people are people, imperfect by nature and even those closest to us can hurt us either intentionally or unintentionally, and while trust is something to be earned it still must be given the opportunity to be earned and grown.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
the missing piece
ever been doing a puzzle and can't seem to find the piece that you need to finish it or to join the sections?
ever feel like your life is like that?
one of my favorite analogies from a lesson at a youth group was: you can only see your piece of the puzzle but God's got the box.
you never quite know where you fit sometimes you do find those with pieces around you where you just fit. sometimes you don't and that's okay too. we are not of this world so we will never quite fit here, that's paraphrasing it from the Bible.
However in my own life i have just had the possibility of a missing piece filled in. it was something i hadn't thought of before, but it was presented to me enough times that i thought i'd look into in mostly to disprove the notion, however when i looked into it further i found myself agreeing more and more with what was being described and then things just seemed to make more sense. one more missing piece in my puzzle, but the "problem" is that God's got the top to my puzzle box too so while i am desperately trying to put together the picture i think it is or i want it to be i am constantly being given new pieces which change the picture in my mind.
not sure if it makes sense to anyone else but me, if not that's okay, if so.. anyone seen a corner piece?? lol
ever feel like your life is like that?
one of my favorite analogies from a lesson at a youth group was: you can only see your piece of the puzzle but God's got the box.
you never quite know where you fit sometimes you do find those with pieces around you where you just fit. sometimes you don't and that's okay too. we are not of this world so we will never quite fit here, that's paraphrasing it from the Bible.
However in my own life i have just had the possibility of a missing piece filled in. it was something i hadn't thought of before, but it was presented to me enough times that i thought i'd look into in mostly to disprove the notion, however when i looked into it further i found myself agreeing more and more with what was being described and then things just seemed to make more sense. one more missing piece in my puzzle, but the "problem" is that God's got the top to my puzzle box too so while i am desperately trying to put together the picture i think it is or i want it to be i am constantly being given new pieces which change the picture in my mind.
not sure if it makes sense to anyone else but me, if not that's okay, if so.. anyone seen a corner piece?? lol
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