There is a hole
it is deep
i try to fill it
it widens
the more i try
the larger it grows
i know that i must give up
yet somehow hold out
believing i can sufficiently fill the hole
i know i cannot but proceed with stubborn determination
i know He needs to do the job
the only one who can
yet i hesitate to relinquish control
futility at it's finest
self righteous & prideful
afraid of what it means to just let go...