Imperfections

I am not perfect :O i know that may be a shock, but i am far from it, in fact i don't think that i have ever had that feeling of a perfect time in my life or a perfect moment. i have managed to screw up what should have been some pretty good moments and other moments have been spoiled for me. I do have moments when for that brief time all seems right with the world, but i know it is only for those few moments. But imperfections are what drive us to be something better, sometimes or they can lead us to overcompensate for our shortcomings. Funny how we all strive to be "normal" and yet no one really has any idea what normal is. "normal" changes all the time. i have decided that i need to become more comfortable with my imperfections, not to give myself an abdication from my responsibilities but to know that when i do something it doesn't have to be perfect and that it is still worth doing even if it is not entirely right. that it's mostly the process not the final product where we learn the most valuable lessons. so often my perfectionistic tendencies keep me from trying things because i know i cannot do them right that it has become a struggle to do many things because they are just not good enough. and when everything in life seems as though it is an uphill battle it loses much of it's joy and possibility and seems to be overwhelmed by drudgery. my goal is to find my passion and relentlessly pursue it no matter if i am good at it or not. and i must promise to do what i need to how i need to do it even if it is not the "right" way. i will try to learn from others without comparing myself to them, and i will remember that every failure holds some lesson and a chance to improve the next time round. it is ok to be me and anyone worth being around will love me imperfections and all.