anxiety butterflies

anxiety is not necessarily always bad. at least not as i understand it. i am in a nervous, excited but completely lost state of mind. once again i cannot sleep because of it, my mind races at a hundred miles a minute, playing every possible scenario of all the situations that i am pondering. something good could come of it, or not, but there is no guarantee it will even happen?
i won't know for sure until i try but it doesn't stop the butterflies.
i do not understand myself i get all focused and worked up about something that is not even settled and set, and it makes it worse when it doesn't go how i pictured it going the majority of the time.
why does everything have to be so complicated?


Philippians 4:6 NLT

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

guess i have my answer, but doesn't make it any easier to follow.