just dance....

so i have been having one of those days that hasn't particularly been horrible but there have just been a bunch of little annoyances, and concerns here and there all day.
my head is just spinning with so many thoughts and what if's and why's and how's.

i went to a dance on saturday, and was told by my dance partner the same thing he told me when he was teaching me to dance, just stop thinking about it so much, you are over thinking it.

today it hit me that my life is like that, i am so busy over thinking, worrying and stressing about stuff lots of which i have no control over that i am missing out on the fun i could be having along the way. God is my "dance partner" in life all i have to do is follow His lead and i will be fine. yes, i may trip up on occasion but who hasn't? the most important thing is how i recover from it all. and how well i follow His lead.

i think this chorus from a song i know sums it up quite nicely......

Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry about what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go
-John Michael Montgomery

too good to be true

i have always been the optimist, generally naively optimistic to a fault, and yet when something really good comes along i can't help but think: it is too good to be true, this won't last like this for long, or what's the catch?
i dislike the fact that that type of cynicism has crept and rooted itself deep within me. i hate the fact that even when things are looking up i am looking for the impending disaster.
old wounds that have turned to scars, and past mistakes, and hurts pop back into my head and essentially ruin the moment.
most of the time i try to ride out the good times and enjoy them until they fall apart, but i know i am considerably more guarded in these type of situations now cause if it all falls apart again the new wound seems to rip open all the old ones too.
and while i know it is worth the risk, it is terrifying, but if i think about it long enough perhaps not quite as scary as the alternative.

Disclaimers and Warning Labels

Have you ever thought that people should come with disclaimers or warning labels?

i just think it would be handy to have all of your chips laid out on the table so that people could really choose best whether or not to hang around you or not.

such as:

lacks the capacity to pick up on most subtleties, please be fairly obvious to avoid misunderstandings, in case of continued obliviousness please just be direct and spell it out.

not that everyone hides this kind of stuff, it's just it doesn't always come up immediately. at least if you knew you could be better prepared for it, and realistically it does take a while for peole to truly be themselves with people, as generally, one will put their best foot forward.

it would be so much easier, but i guess that's part of the joy of getting to know people. you slowly get to know or see their warning labels and you can choose if you want to continue to stay but sometimes it would just be easier to know right away to avoid some unpleasant situations that may come up, but then again i guess we learn things through those and perhaps learn to read people better about that specific trait, or then again perhaps not.