wheeeeeeeeeee

being an emotionally driven person can be tricky, and as much as you try to guard your heart it seems to escape and run away on you.
i think especially when you have pretty much lost all hope it will latch on and ride out any semblance of hope that it sees, making it vulnerable and susceptible to being broken when the dream becomes a reality. yet it can justify things with a nothing ventured, nothing gained mentality yelling, "Life is pain, Highness. anyone who says differently is selling something"
...at least feeling pain is better than being numb and hope is always better than fear. but i think sometimes there is something that hits you and holds you and it just seems right....naive, optimistic and hopelessly romantic....potentially a ridiculously bad combination but i guess that i would rather live to believe in the possibility of love than to be stuck as a bitter cynic who guards their heart so tightly no one can get in and bitterness spews out.
sometimes you just have to let go and enjoy the ride.....wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.